Work errors

I hate making mistakes at work. I always feel like any mistake I make is completely and thoroughly my fault, despite any other circumstances surrounding my failure.

I know that no person is perfect but I hate that feeling when you have to be put in that position. Obviously learning a job there is no possible way to get everything right every time you do it.

But I always have a tough time figuring out how I should act when I make a mistake. Should I act like I'm really upset about it because I want people to know that I'm taking the task seriously. But I always don't want to stress out about silly little things that won't be helped by me getting mad about them and not moving on. But then that runs the risk of people thinking I don't take and car or pride in what I'm doing.

chocolate and gossip girl

I literally will die a diabetic. My whole life I have always been more of a salty than sweet person - but working has turned me into a crazy chocoholic. Literally not a day goes by where I do not eat chocolate - expect on weekends. Tonight I went grocery shopping and found that milka bars were on sale and I couldn't resist. There were also two special limited edition bars celebrating milkas 111th birthday.

So I just finished eating the bar with the brown cake...and it has pop rocks. Someone brought this for me when I was in grade four and I have never forgot it. Amazing....I have never eaten and entire bar like that before. I just couldn't stop....

Also did you know that milka was owned by kraft foods?

I also happen to be watching gossip girl and it may have one the award for the single worst gossip girl line of all time. I can't remember the exact line and I really don't feel like going back to watch it.

So the two characters are discovering something in Blairs prenup and one says  "If this marriage doesn't work out the Waldorf family will have to pay enough to bankrupt the family' obviously the prenup doesn't say enough to bankrupt the family. Obviously this character would never know how much is needed to bankrupt the family. She doesn't know their personal wealth that well. If you knew the story you would just die of how dumb this show is, but then you would judge me for continuing to watch it.

a multi tasker

I have a very difficult time focusing on doing one thing.

whenever I sit an do something rather mindless, like watching tv or a program on my computer I have a difficult time just sitting there and not doing anything.

When I was little I used to be addicted - like seriously addicted - to making necklaces and bracelets with beads. Looking back I was very entrepreneurial and tried to sell them but I completely understand why no one would buy them. They were decent quality but fashion wise were not the most amazing. I don't think I often even wore my own creations. When ever I would watch tv I always had my little 'station' set up on a bench and I would drag it over every night and sit on my bean bag chair, stuffed with foam and craft. When I stopped being so into beading I would feel like I was being inefficient and lazy with my time whenever I would just sit there and do nothing. This led into a few failed knitting projects and no I often am reading blogs when I watch programs. I can rarely just do one thing at a time. (this is especially evident when I try to study) When I used to practice piano it was always important for me to try and memorize things as early as possible so that I could play them mindlessly while reading magazines; books just didn't stay open.

Even now when I don't feel like reading any of my blogs I will have something in my hand that I play around with. I never really thought about it until this year, but it's true, I can never focus on just one thing at a time.

I think this is one reason I like to be busy at work - because I always know that I'm going to have more things to do and more things to think about.

is it enough

So I love to creep blogs. I spend hours looking through other people's tumblrs just trying to get inspired.

A lot of the content has to do with fashion and decor and food and I just really appreciate so many of the pictures that are being posted and there are so many things that I want to incorporate into my lifestyle but I know that I'm going to have some retention of about 10%.

There are also a lot of ideas for DIY projects that you can do for your home...I love to DIM. And looking at all these pictures makes me want to DIM and I'm just so inspired to look at all these different style influences and try and find what I really like out of all these things. But I like to many things. Once I get my own house I don't know how I'm going to deal with making it how I want it. I see all these cool little projects but when will I reach the point where I say ok I'm happy with what I have. I don't want to constantly be buying these new little things that I think are going to make my house look cool, because I will eventually just lose the aesthetic under a massive pile of junk. I think about my parents house and how there are things that have obviously been changed and remodelled through out the years, and there are things that have been redone and now wouldn't hurt from being redone again. Namely the room that was sponge painted pink. So ugly, but pretty cool at the time. But It woulnd't be bad if it didn't look like that any more. And I know that houses constantly seem to be a work in progress but does that then mean that you won't truly be able to anjoy your house to the fullest. Like I sometimes think, wow I would enjoy this more if I had a comfier couch. Or even my room there. I don't really like the furniture I have in my room. It doesn't match and it looks outdated. It's ok because I won't live there for a while. But I like the darkness and I love my bed.

I also think about when I become rich and famous - will I want to live in an apartment or a house and what kind of house do I want because I want different types of houses. Biggest requirement - a library....

I think my only realistic solution is to have multiple houses.

literally describes my life

So I'm sitting at home acting like most other students with midterms coming up - spending my time on stumble upon...

and this little ditty comes on...I shit you not....It's very eerily biographical.

I will bold out the lyrics that are true


Artist: Cat Stevens
Another Saturday Night Lyics
Another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody
I've got some money 'cause I just got paid
Now, how I wish I had someone to talk to
I'm in an awful way

I got in town a month ago - (literally)
I seen a lot of girls since then - I'm not interested, but I have seen them
If I could meet 'em I could get 'em
But as yet I haven't met 'em
That's how I'm in the state I'm in

Oh,
Another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody
I've got some money 'cause I just got paid
Now, how I wish I had someone to talk to
I'm in an awful way - Same as before, still true

Another fella told me
He had a sister who looked just fine
Instead of bein' my deliv'rance
She had a strange resemblance
To a cat named Frankenstein

Ooh, la,
Another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody
I've got some money 'cause I just got paid
Now, how I wish I had someone to talk to
I'm in an awful way

It's hard on a fella - or a lady
When he don't know his way around
If I don't find me a honey
To help me spend my money
I'm gonna have to blow this town

Oh, no
Another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody
I've got some money 'cause I just got paid
Now, how I wish I had someone to talk to
I'm in an awful way

feelings old

So big footy match today (I'm going to start my new pretentiousness by calling soccer football, I will increase all my pretentiousness, especially when I get back to winnipeg and rub in everyone's face that I was living in europe).

I have been a liverpool fan ever since I was probably around 8 years old...why liverpool you ask? I think because I started off as a michael owen fan. I liked him because he was so young and soo good. I was very into soccer when I was younger and played. Every saturday morning I would watch with my father and he kind of liked liverpool and so because michael owen played for them I decided that I should become a fan too. I was pretty obsessed because I also had a large crush on him as well. Most young girls will have pictures of celebrities - I had three or four michael owen posters. The greatest thing ever was when I got the actual michael owen kit - and this is back when he was still number 18. I still remember as well during the 98 world cup when he became the youngest world cup scorer. Michael now plays for manchester...which is just garbage. I should actually say that he sits of the bench for manchester due to the fact that he is always injured. I also follow him on twitter and it just makes me dislike him even more. He actually recently released and app and I was reading some reviews about how lame this app was - no surprise.

So this comes up because I am currently watching the pregame showfor liverpool vs. manchester and I'm seeing more and more guys that I remember watching when I was young and it's just so strange that they have moved on. It makes me feel a little old.

I'm also a little bothered because they are doing a little profile of andy carroll...and I am not enjoying it. I really don't understand why he starts as much as he does. He is just not impressing me at all. I just don't see the work rate compared to some of the other players. I know that he's on a bit of a goal drought right now, but he just doesn't put himself in the place for enough chances like suarez does.


Also something weird is that I am watching the pregame show which is sponsered by ford. But this is a british station that I'm watching.

Buffet Greed

So you know when there is food that is there so that it can be shared with a community. Some generous soul thinks of everyone and brings them all treats. There are those that eat one politely because it's there. There are others that have new sugar addictions (myself) who want to eat 17 pieces of whatever it is...at this point it doesn't even matter - but I hold back.

At any social gathering whenever there is a table of food there is always the awkward positions of being first and last to eat. First is super awkward because you don't want to look picky by passing things over and rejecting deliciousness that others have taken the time to prepare. You also don't want to be guilty of taking to much because everyone behind you will see how much you have taken and of course judge you for taking to much.

Then there is the position when everyone has gotten there fill, or when you are the last in line. Or even worse when you are near the end in line. You see that the best foods have been picked over and if you are lucky there are still some noodles to scrape off of your favourite casserole dish. But you also know that there are people still waiting to eat. Are you going to be that greedy person that denies them the chance of getting any of that food. You may take the stance that they should have come sooner, but common courtesy dictates that you should always share.

I also hate when there are a few things left on the table that are kind of getting picked over and you always feel awkward taking one of the last things from the plate. It's always weird, I don't care what you say. For me the greatest feelings is knowing that it's the last one on the plate and then they come out with more from the kitchen. You are now a hero for getting rid of that last piece of food so that more can be served. You can also enjoy the newly warm food as well.

excitement-gasm

It seems like lately I have just been really excited. Like I just don't understand why. People ask me whether I like Germany...obviously yes - but I can't really say why. I know that I'm really happy here but there is nothing really specific that really attracts my to the place. I just smile.

Lately it has led to me just having these little feelings where I want to let out a little yip because I am so excited. And honestly it is so hard for me to contain it. It's super weird. Like why am I so happy?! chill out kid!

Today was an extra lot of excitement-gasms as I am going to call them.

For one it was friday which always gets me pumped. I just think it is the coolest thing that I get to finish at 1:45. It's not that much but it makes such a difference. Through the entire day my bum slowly and slowly has a tougher time staying on the chair because I'm just so excited to leave at 1:45. That countdown to being finished starts soo early. Like right at 10:45 all I think is 3 hours left!!!

Then today was exceptional as far as food goes. In Germany when it's your birthday you have to bring cake to work. So it was someone's birthday today (second this week) and she brought in two cakes. I didn't have on but the other was the most amazing cheesecake I have ever had. It was unreal.

Someone also decided to be nice and bring in fresh buns with fresh sausage. The best leberwurst I have EVER had, along with pickles and pickled peppers were served as well. It was so fantastic.

Then I had a conversation with someone in German on the phone and I just felt so proud of myself for making it through. I had to have a little quick cheer session for myself.

Then I got excited because I knew I was going to be able to have a nap when I got home. My bed is unbelievably comfortable. And I was also going to have my favourite show to watch.

I love today!

more about eating

One thing I've noticed about the German eating habits are that they are very proper. Last weekend I had the pleasure of attending a party with a multitude of strangers. Although it was a very comfortable fun little apartment party with lots of good food I feel I made a minor social faux pas. There were no more clean plates and like someone who has had a few glasses of prosecco I decided against washing my own plate. I just wanted a few leftover noodles. So I of course put them on a napkin and went back to join my conversation.

The people were a few words before upset with the fact that I wasn't able to use a plate. It's ok - I just wanted a few noodles, they are so good! But right away people were almost jumping out of their chairs to help me. I had to assure people it was ok and that I wasn't offended there weren't enough plates.

I guess I never realized it at work either. Often people will bring leftovers, in tupperware containers, but they will never heat up their food in the tupperware container. It must always first be put on a plate.

It's very interesting because today two of the ladies brought soup. One was the kind where you add water to the bowl and the other had the one where you just heat up the container that the soup is packaged in. Both of them however put the soups in their own bowls to be eaten. Despite the fact that they didn't need to dirty a dish they didn't feel right (or so I assume) eating out of the container. I wonder if this is something that is common across germany, and if so, whether or not it is something that marketers feel they need to be explicitly aware of when they are introducing products.